Stuck

I fear I am stuck.  Stuck in a place that I can’t get out of because I have no desire to try.  Stuck in a place that I fear I may never try to get out of because it is comfortable and I don’t want to test the waters.  I really want to move forward but I’m stuck.  The thing that probably causes me to be stuck in this place is my fear of the unknown. Not fear of a challenge but the unknown.  What if I go out there and nothing happens. Or worse what if I go out there and something does happen and I fail.  This is not something that I look forward to; I do not like to fail.  This probably explains a lot about me. Why when I was in high school I took 5 math classes when I only needed 3 to graduate, 4 sciences when I only needed 3 to graduate.  Yet when I got to college took only the amount that I needed to graduate b/c I knew college math and science was harder than high school (as it should be).

I want desperately to get my PhD but I am not pushing myself towards it.  I guess it’s along those same lines. I fear I will fail at it so I don’t pursue it.  I make excuses. I dream of making it instead of actually trying to make it.  So please explain to me why I can’t seem to move forward. It’s like I’m stuck in cement with no one to help break me out.   I need the motivation to move forward. Maybe losing weight will be that motivation that I need.  Maybe moving in with Misty’s mom will help lessen the money stress that I feel every time I think about going back to school.  I mean getting a PhD is gonna cost some money and I already owe a HUGE amount in student loans.  I just want to move forward and begin teaching and writing.  I don’t really know what is stopping me from writing.  The resources are there all I have to do is start.  Maybe I’m afraid people will laugh and tell me I can’t do it.  Maybe I believe I can’t do it.  I seriously need some motivation.

I hate being stuck.

Itunes

So because I've recently purchased an IPhone I am in the process of putting my music onto it. I gotta tell you I love having my favorite music at my fingertips. Anyway I'm in the process of currently doing that and it gets pretty tedious especially when you realize that you have music on your computer not labeled. You see this then means that I have to sit and listen to the songs and name them. This is taking forever!! Ugh oh well it'll be worth it in the end.
Anyway guess I better get back to it.
Until next time!
Court :)

Winter Weather

Oh boy!! Looks like there is gonna be some more winter weather here! LOL! I find it terribly funny that there is a chance, a 40% chance, of a wintry mix and schools are already announcing when they will be closing.  That's just crazy to me. I mean really?? Holy cow! I realize that this is the south and anytime that there is a mere MENTION of wintry weather, the grocery stories are cleared out and people go into panic mode. But I mean come on. There has to be a limit to the craziness.  We haven't had a serious ice storm in years and there is no proof that the weather headed our way will cause one either.  Now if we were in Tennessee or Arkansas there would be cause for concern. Or even if we were in North Mississippi, but hello we are in central Mississippi and there is only a little falling right now.  I know the bridges are gonna freeze cause they always do when the temps are what they are, but come on! Calm down and if you want to see some real winter weather, check out Chicago or any place in the mid west or north. Now that's winter weather and reason to cancel school.

I guess that's one thing I'll never get used to down here.  The way people freak out b/c of the weather. And I've lived here ALL MY LIFE. It's not just winter weather that freaks people out.  Try driving in the rain, holy cow. Speeds get reduced to 40 in 70 mph zones and people grip the wheel. I can understand  if it is pouring down, yes please drive slowly, but not when it's a drizzle! Any way, I guess that's just something that I'll have to keep dealing with!

Until next time! Be safe and stay warm!
Much Love,
Court

Blogger App for Iphone

So I got the blogger app for my phone and I'm trying it out to see if I like it. So far so good. You know sometimes I just don't feel like getting my computer out to blog and I alway have my phone so we'll see how it goes.