Someone please explain to me how I grew up surrounded by the men in my family and turned out the way I did? I mean seriously. I don't really understand it. My brother and I were raised in the same household with the same mother and father. He saw how our father was and we both experienced it. Then when our parents got divorced and my mom married my step dad he saw how different he was. We have both been there with our father when were the center of his world cause we were his kids and we have both been there when a woman came into the picture and we were pushed to the background of his world. We were both raised by a woman who needed a strong man in her life and was blessed to find one in our step dad. This same woman who when each of her children do something is ALWAYS on the sidelines of our life cheering us on, no matter what it was. Whether it was EVERY Friday night at football games for me ( I was in the band..woot) or when I went to college every Thursday night at those football games. Or out at the ballpark for baseball and softball for me and my brothers. She was there cheering us on and BRAGGING to other people about how talented her kids were. Or when my brother went to Iraq, she was there praying for him, loving him, worrying about him. While our father (not my stepdad) wasn't there for those football games or baseball/softball games cheering us on. But he was there when my brother went to Iraq cause that was honorable and something big to brag about.
This is not to bash my dad, but to vent some frustration I'm feeling right now and have been feeling a lot lately and I need a place to let off some steam. I love my dad, I just don't always like him. Same goes for my brother and even my mother. I love them all the time, but I don't always like them. (and I hope they can say the same for me cause I KNOW I do some stuff that they don't always like ;) )
Let me start with the root of my frustration and how this all began and is spreading like wild fire. So I had a birthday last month, turned the big 30!! (woo hoo!) Now I wasn't asking for any big presents cause I mean come on with this economy....anyway, I was just asking for some recognition that this was a big day for me, I mean 30 is a BIG milestone a BIG birthday and considering what happened on my 29th, I'm sorry but I expected at least the same on this one....(last year my dad did a birthday dinner for me with a cake and yeah presents). What do I get I ask you??? Flowers from my dad, tons of text messages, birthday dinner and a cake from my best friend and her family, an emerald tennis bracelet from my best friend. No birthday dinner from my dad (he said it was b/c he didn't have the money
